Poems and Prose

Here are some examples of my writing, both poetry and prose.

Here is an epistolary poem that was nominated for a Pushcart Prize by Narrative Northeast:

Mother, My Ashes


My house burned and now your ashes are mingled

with those of my home—

beds and scraps of poetry and walls.

The April skies are a blue hum that turns to gray water

when the winds come, and the bindweed

already strangles the clematis while I let it,

while I seek shelter.



if you were here I would lean against

your strong, Austrian bones, touch

your weathered face and remind you

that every home is temporary, even that of body,

and you didn’t have to fight your death so much,

the ragged breathing and sweat in the nursing home,

which smelled like detergent and urine.



if you were here you would find me a home.

I am so alone.

But I have friends and family, just not you.

In the evenings the liquor soothes me,

and when the sun drops over the mountains,

shadows stretch into my belly and nestle

in my empty breasts that once fed my children,

as you did me.

I become the rain and though the ground is thirsty,

I want the sun to cut through the trees and allow

the shade to do its dark work.


Father gave me a pill made of blood and rancor

and he told me if I swallow it, an apple tree

would grow in my body.

He gave me a glass of water and made me swallow it,

and you didn’t protect me.

It tasted like vinegar and metal.

It grew in me and God pushed me out of the jungle

into a city’s alley where discarded needles

punctured my feet and the man with the green coat

gave me a torn blanket.

At least now I’m never cold.

I forgive you.



I remember how your ashes glinted warm on the Danube

and carried you to the Black Sea.


The only sea I know is the Saragossa Sea,

which has no shore.


Here’s a piece published by Greenprints magazine: June 2019

My Mother’s Garden           

One time my father tried to commit suicide was the summer my mother worked hardest on our garden. He was in a mental hospital, and it was a typical Midwest summer—hot, humid, and punctuated with thunderstorms. I was eleven years old and spending my days at the City Club, which consisted of a pool and a dingy locker room with concrete floors and showers that felt like needles, while my mother stayed home and weeded the beds of flowers and the vegetable garden.

            My mother was Austrian and grew up after the war scavenging in the Alps for mushrooms, nettle, and elderberry blossoms they fried in butter if they could find someone with a cow to trade it for the potatoes from their garden. Now in South Bend, Indiana, she collected seeds of herbs from her visits to her stepmother from summer visits in Leoben and planted them in our backyard, where they grew green and lush in the soil she made rich with cow manure she got from a farmer from Michigan (Its stench used to embarrass me). With the herbs she made Kartofelknoedel, bread dumplings made of stale bread, broth, and herbs. She also planted currant bushes, and I used to pick the tiny sour berries and eat them. In August she would harvest them and turn them into jam. All year round we ate it in Palatschinken, crepes filled with jam and sprinkled with powder sugar, or in our peanut butter sandwiches. My mother hated peanut butter but reluctantly fed it us. She said it was like eating food that someone had chewed for you.

            That summer, she labored for hours weeding the flowerbeds that encircled our back lawn. She was especially proud of her roses, but the daisies, poppies, and myriad other flowers gave the frame of that yard a kaleidoscope of color. She would come into the house periodically to get another beer, her face covered in sweat, her brown strands of hair wet against her tan face, her arms muscular from all the planting and digging and weeding. She was building a world while I spent my days swimming back and forth in chlorinated pools, coming home to eat what my mother supplied—carrots, tomatoes, strawberries.

            In the back of the yard, where a crabapple tree housed the katydids, their buzz like the sound of broken electric wires, a rhubarb plant spread amongst weeds framing our back alley. The crabapple tree shed its tasteless and wasted fruit on the ground. The alley was made of barren packed dirt and pebbles. I spent my late afternoons walking down the alley to an empty lot with a mulberry tree. I would climb it to harvest its berries and gaze at the rows of houses on our block and their perfect green lawns. We called that empty lot “the field,” a wild place with high grass, weeds, and bushes.

            Sometimes I had to visit my father, who shuffled on the dirty linoleum of the mental hospital, his lips dry and white from drugs. He gave us presents he’d crafted there. Once he gave me a hickory box he’d shellacked with a picture of a farm—a red barn, horses grazing, a field of grain ripe for the harvest.

            The day he gave me that gift, we came home and my mother asked me to gather rhubarb and strawberries. She said she would make a pie for us. I went into the backyard and into the garden and swiped away the flies and mosquitoes from my face as I picked the strawberries from the rich soil. Then I went to the back, to the alley where the rhubarb nested in the weeds, with red stripes and a skin so tough and a meat so sour that I knew only my mother could turn it into something sweet.